New addition to the madness

*raises hand* I Jungle Julia am a junk food junkie. I love sugar and while I try not to, I gorge on it on a regular basis. *laughs* I'm so glad that I don't gain weight that fast, or I'd be a blimp now! I'm quite fortunate to have a relatively quick metabolism. whew. Anyway, I've been mulling over this vow and I will make it aloud to myself here on my blog. I will give up junk food.

*eerie silence*

I'm serious!

*crickets*

Fine, don't believe me. I'll show you!

Well, in all seriousness, I'm getting on in years and I don't want to be some fat old lady, so I need to take care of it before the problem starts. I must fine substitutes for those delicious hostess orange cupcakes, the moonpies, the snickers, and other delectable sweets. God... this will be so hard. But, it will be worth it in the long run.

*bites fingernails*

So, because it's almost bedtime, starting tomorrow... I... will.... eep... lay off the crap. The only things I'm afraid of, it the cravings will make me eat everything else under the sun, as I search for that thing I'm craving for. You know, when you're wanting chocolate, nothing else will do until you get it. I'm not going to be "oh, no you can't have it, suffer and eat out the whole pantry..." I'll allow a bit of chocolate here and there, but not on the calibre that I've been eating this crap. That'll save me a lot of promise breaking. And the other thing is that I can't have a lot of it in the house, because I'll eat beyond satisfaction. I'll totally scarf down a whole box of milk duds, just because it's sooo good, not because I'm still wanting chocolate and sugar. Yes, that's why they call it addiction. I went cold turkey once before, and it was like those heroin addicts shaking and scratching for a fix. It would have been funny if I wasn't going insane at the time. I don't know what lead me right back into the pit. Well, I'll take that back, I am definitely not as bad as I was, so while I'm still in the pit, I'm not in as deep as I was. It's a start.

Mostly I go nuts around my period, which annoys me even more. First I have to deal with the moods, the bloating the nightmares and the cravings and *then* the pain and the uncomfortableness and the bleeding. It's fun all around. Yeah, not a big fan on this menstrual business.

Well, anyway, I've made the vow, now I have to stick with it. Maybe I should take up smoking.

Oh shin splints have healed, so I can get back to the track. Smarter running so that I won't wreck my shins and knees. Saturday!




Mood: : Pensive